Its Like This:

You have to have the nicest jeans, or the cutest purse, or say the newest thing so that it catches on. You have to be skinny, you have to buy this, wear this, say that, be on his side, her side, be neutral,have straight teeth, your hair can't be frizzy, and you can't wear that because it just doesn't 'work' anymore. You have to go to parties, be friends with everyone, trust no one, pose like this, smile like that, tilt your head this way, and put your hand on your hip, because that's how it is. And let me just say, F*** all of that.

The Fellow

Its silent. Its silent and dark in my room right now. I have my window wide open so i could catch any cool breeze that happens to drift on by, and i could hear dogs barking in the distance. This post has taken longer to write than usual, being that for the past hour, I've been laying in the middle of my bed, in the dark, just thinking....

I listen out for any familiar noises I hear, and try to relate a time and place in which i remember hearing such a sound. I begin to hear an owl. Not to close, but close enough that the echo seems to be surrounding me.

Im a little girl, Im sitting out in the backyard on a hot summer night watching the stars come out. I cant seem to focus because I could hear this owl around me. Taking a quick glance around me I try to see where its coming from.I climb and stand on top of the old, faded, red slide thats to my right and begin to try and locate the fellow. -No luck. But i could still hear him. (Isn't it odd that most of the time you hear an owl, but when seeking to find it, you never can).I begin to become frustrated not knowing where this owl is. Just then, my mother calls me in. "The mosquitoes are out! come in!". I grab my stuff and go inside.

Thats what i think of every-time I hear an owl. My mind some how traces back to that time and place in my young childhood. I love it. I love how the mind works. I love how every little thing and experience means something. Its amazing.

Its Been Awhile Folks,

Just as i stated in my first post, indeed I did forget to keep up with this. Things got pretty crazy and busy on my end. But i promise I'm going to try this time.

So which brings me to this,

Lately I have been really frustrated with the people of this world. Lack of respect for others and lack of respect for themselves. I don't understand the concept. There's a particular person that i know (not by choice) that is raciest against a nationality that I am. Does it bother me? You better believe it! Do I let it get to me? I try not to. Simply because I understand that were all entitled to our own opinions and I respect that. Normally when this person is speaking out about what they "believe" in, its not directed towards me, I just so happen to be around to hear it. It really made me sick to hear the words that were coming out of there mouth, So one day i decided that I had enough. I went up to that person and gave them a mouthful of MY opinions. Not to my surprise, after hearing what I had to say that person was speechless. Due to their lack of knowledge which I knew they lacked a lot of, they had nothing in their defense. Everything they were trying to say back to me wasn't making any sense and I could tell they were nervous because they kept repeating themselves and stuttering over there words. In the end, they were the ones who looked like the idiot, Not the mexican ;]

I didn't write about this experience to sound like some bad @$$.

I just want you to understand that it is VERY important to stand up for what you believe in.

No matter what it is, What you believe in is apart of you. But don't put shame to what you believe in, remember it reflects upon what kind of person you are. I love people who have opinions, But I do think sometimes its unnecessary to go around shoving it down peoples throats. Have respect towards others and yourself.

-Jasmine

It Sounds More Classy

So im sitting here in my room on the floor, not so sure where im going with this or how much i wanna spill out. My mind is on overload. So much i wanna say, so much i hold back. I really just wanna call someone random and strike up a conversation. "Hello! How are you this evening?" Only its almost going to be 10pm so its not really the evening anymore but it sounds more classy. I love meeting new people, its always a plesure. Especially when you've seen that person around before and you judge them thinking their the most stuck up person ever just because they have "that face" haha and you've heard "stories" but when you meet them there totally opposite from everything you thought. Its almost like a pleasant surprise. Then you feel like a total jerk for ever thinking they were what you thought. I dont know, i get that a lot from people. They take one look at me and assume something im not, then they get to know me and there like "Oh Muh Gawd!" hahaha juuuuuust like that too! Asaddjhgfrehfgygafgdjhfgejfteygfd im done.

I Dont Even Need A Tittle.

I hate the feeling you get when your not sure of something, like you think your doing things right but your constantly doubting yourself. Lately ive been feeling like that. Everything i set my mind out to do is changing. Its really confusing at points and im not really sure what to do other then just pray about it. Life is full of surprises, and i find that my life is like a roller coaster. It has its up's and downs, and sometimes its turned completely upside down and in some cases goes off track. I dont know what im doing with my life, or where i will be in 6 months...but i do know i cant do it alone anymore......

Reality Check.

I remember being a little girl, always laying down in the grass watching the clouds or airplanes pass by. I always thought about my future and where i would be ten years from then. I couldnt wait to grow up! hahaha i thought everything got easier as you got older. I now take back all the times i said that. I mean, dont get me wrong my life is pretty darn good right now but i miss being able to be "worry free". i miss the innocent mind as a child we all had, i miss not caring about how i look going to the store, i miss laughing so hard at the dumbest things such as, not telling the person who was drinking Kool-Aid that they had the red mustache after and laughing because they were totally clueless about what was going on! hahaha or waking up extra early on saturday mornings just to make some cereal and sit in fron of the tv in your Pj's watching Cartoons till noon. Or thinking you were sooo cool because you had the Yo-Yo that lit up and knew a stupid trick. I miss being excited the night before christmas and how i couldnt sleep because i was tossing and turning the whole night in anticipation of what i got! i miss thinking boys had cooties and knowing "Circle circle dot dot, now you got the cootie shot " would ALWAYS save me! I guess im realizing i am growing up, and its happening faster than i expected! all those memories of me being a little girl feels like it was yesterday. Life comes at you so fast, before i know it, ill be married with kids! Just Kidding! hahah that wont be happening anytime soon! :p but you get my point. Enjoy your life guys because were only here for a short period of time.

Attack Of The Clones!

You know what i realized, so many people devote their daily actions into something i find pathetic. Meaning; they go around trying their hardest to fit in with a certain crowd they know they dont belong to. But still, like the idiots that they are, they proceed to continue into this practice of always trying to impress people or get in with the "in crowd" just so they feel like they belong to something. Are you afraid to stand out?What happen to this generation, im so sick of it already. Everywhere i look i see walking clones of people. Its like there all afraid to be themselves, and soon enough they wont even have a clue to who they are. Be proud of who you are, and stop caring what people think. There JUST people, and if you think about it, if they really cared about you they would accept you for who you are no matter what.Dare to be different, seriously.

-Jasmine